Out of bed (sort of)

Good days and bad days. For the entire month of December, I have been struggling with various symptoms ranging from burning tonsils, stomach aches, vomiting, swollen glands, ear aches, coughing (constantly), fever, nasuea, fatigue, etc....After two emergency room visits for dehydration, a 13 pound weight loss, an appointment with urgent care, and 3 doctor visits, I finally met with my own doctor after three weeks of fragmented medical care. My family was correct. Mononucleousis. Part of the problem is that I have a sesitivity to antibiotics which I believe poisoned me and made me sicker. On Christmas Eve, I had this debate with my doctor's assistant who was adament that I needed to take it. Needless to say, I was sick the following two days with my sister filling in for me for Christmas to ensure Alan enjoyed the festivities along with our family tradiations. So when I met with my doctor on Friday, he confirmed that I should NOT have taken the antibiotics. HOW FRUSTRATING!!! (3 other medical professionals had given me three different rounds of antibiotics which made me sooooooo sick!) It's a catch 22. With burning tonsils, you can't eat or drink, so when you take the antibiotics, it burns the tummy. Plus, MONO is a VIRIS, and antibiotics should NOT be taken!!!

So my recovery is slow. I feel like my mind wants to move, and it has to tell my body to follow, but all my body wants to do is collapse. This is the first time on the computer in 3 weeks. We flew my mother in on Christmas day. She's a nurse who has been sooooo helpful. My mother-in-law, Roger and Suzanne have been such a support. There has been nothing but love and caring in the house, and Alan is well taken care of. Instead of watching TV, I have been listening to the sounds in the house. I enjoy listening to Alan interacting with family. It made me feel a little sad one night when he woke up asking for "Emma" instead of "Mommy". I am pretty contageous, so I have been trying really hard to keep clean.

Since I never finished Christmas shopping, I feel a little bad about not getting presents for my family and freinds. But as soon as I am well, I will make it up to everyone. I want to THANK Melanie and Eileen for visiting me on Christmas Eve and Jules the days before and for Patterson for checking up on me, and for Portia and Louis and Julie and everyone for your support. I thank Phil for watching Alan while I went to the ER.....It made SUCH a difference to know that people are there for us!!!
I was so depressed and sick, and it made me feel so good! Also, Louis's phone call about a job offer was also good news too! Suzanne - you were AMAZING! You made Alan's experience special by bakign cookies with him, leaving a note for Santa and celery for the reindeer. You played with him and made him feel so special. I AM SO THANKFUL TO HAVE ALL OF YOU IN MY LIFE!!! I have tried to call people to connect with them to let them know I am alive and miss them I hopefully will be on the mend soon. Portia was such a great listener last night. I had a setback yesterday which freaked me out, but know I am a little better today. And thanks to both of the Mom's for taking care of me....they both even slept with me explosing themselves to my germs.....And Roger, thanks for putting up with the drama at the ER (before and after), and for being such a great advocate for my care.

Thanks for letting me vent!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL AND MISSS YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! WE have so much to look forward to in 2008. Melanie is about to have a baby!!!! Can't wait for that!!! Enjoy the snow and the rest of your weekend vacation!!!! Send me a note of phone call. It has meant alot. THANKS!!!!!!

PS - One more depressing thought that is somewhat humorous. So I didn't get a chance to open all of my Christmas presents. They were still stacked under the tree. Three days after Christmas, I had a little burst of energy, and walked downstairs to open up some presents.....but....they were all gone!!! Nothing under the tree. My family had opened the presents on my behalf. I figured out what some of them were....new pots and pans, a lamp, coffee maker, etc....socks, But Roger did get me a nice pair of earrings on Christmas eve in bewteen violent episodes of various symptoms....so I don't really feel like I missed out. I also was able to pull it together for about 20 minutes on Christmas day to see Alan open up his vaccuum cleaner and Fire Truck bed. Okay, that's all for now...